I often find myself so fed up with the things going on in my life. I'm sure we've all had those moments where we just want to scream at God and ask, "Why?" However, more often than not, His glory is revealed to me later on. Don't be mistaken, it might not be the very next day or even the next week. But, looking back on all the bad things or events that have caused me to ask "why", I now have an answer.
It's draining going through loss, financial struggles, heartbreak, etc. I kept getting hit left and right with struggle after struggle; basically, nothing was going my way. To put candidly, I was crying every day. However, even through the loss of my father, I still picked up that book every night and tried to understand His plan. I've had days where it didn't seem like God was listening to me or not answering me. I found that to be entirely untrue.
I found myself being so drained because of school. I have been to 3 colleges in the last 6 years and I was beginning to think it wasn't for me. I knew I was capable of getting through it, but with all the negativity going on around me, I just wanted to quit.
One day later that week I was scrolling through my many social medias - as we all do - and a few Biblical accounts were popping up on my pages. Each one of them said, "Don't quit," "I have a plan," "Do not give up." But, one post in particular was a video from a man who relayed a message he felt God wanted him to say: "I know you've been frustrated, but trust in me that I will be there." I immediately bursted out crying. I opened my Bible, and I flipped through the pages until I found a few verses that calmed my mind and my spirit:
"But blessed is the one who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in him." Jeremiah 17:7
"Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him; do not fret when people succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes." Psalm 37:7
When I lost my dad, I didn't understand why, but I never blamed God for it. Here we are a year later, I can confidently tell you why. Sometimes the struggle someone is going through is far greater than anything you or I can imagine. Only the Lord knows what a person is truly dealing with. If God decides to bring them home because he feels like they have suffered enough, you just have to trust that he has a plan. As hard as it is, you have to remember that we are only here temporarily. Some day, you're going to see your grandma again, you're going to see your mom, your bother, your sister- the wave of happiness that you will feel will be inexplicable.
It is our jobs as Christians to spread the word of Jesus Christ. If someone you know is going through constant struggle, remind them that Jesus is always nearby, and pray together. I cannot emphasize enough how powerful prayer is. I have watched him answer countless prayers. He cares and loves everyone.
I've also come to learn that God speaks through others to get to you. However, be discerning. It is important to read his Word so that you can distinguish between who is speaking to you: God or Lucifer.
When you get frustrated with yourself, or even Him, tell him! He knows what you're feeling, and wants you to talk to him about it. Speak to him as if you were speaking to your own father. Tell him why you're upset, ask for him to help you, trust that he will be there for you. Here's the harsh reality: you're not suppose to be comfortable. Life gets so much harder when you accept Jesus into your life. If you stay by his side, he will stay by yours.; I know, being patient is the WORST. I have one of the worst qualities: impatience. Practicing patience is all God asks for. He does not expect you to be perfect. He sees you trying and that's all he wants.
Read read read read the Bible. I cannot tell you how many people have told me that my strength is what they admire most about me, and in return I tell them that it's all because of him. It sparks a conversation like none other. Next time you're feeling angry, upset, or frustrated, pull out your Bible, reach out to a fellow Christian, pray, talk to your pastor, go sit in a church parking lot. Personally, I write down my prayers and I mark them "answered" to remind myself that he will come through for me. You are not alone in your struggles, and you are never without Jesus.
Last thing I want you to take from this is that God's work is always for the greater good. The enemy's goal is to steal, kill, and destroy. There may be battles and losses; but remember this- it is God who always wins the war.